October

October was a blast. We had Haloween events all over the place.

My mommies group does a annual trunk or treat. It was so fun this year! The weather was perfect. They had it at a local park. We played games and socialized then the kids got to go trunk or treating. They loved it.


Izaac's school had a costume parade then a class party. They made a witched brew during the assembly and each class got to take a culdrin to have with their treats in class. It was homemade rootbeer. In class they sang songs and played haloween games.



We had some haloween projects to! I bought some Foamy stickers and let the kids go crazy decorating some paper.

Then of course we had our annua pumpkin carving party. Izaac really wanted to help this year. It was great!

The kids went Trick or Treating with dad this year so I sat home and passed out candy for the first time ever! It was fun! The kids looked great in their costumes!

Kyrie's 2nd Birthday

It was a blast! Chris had her for the frist half of the day. Then that night we had a few family and friends over for presents and cake and ice cream at our house. She had a puppy party. My mom made the cutest puppy cake and balloons. She loved them!

I can't believe she is two! Time went so fast. She is the sweetest girly girl ever. She loves her bows and jewlery. She rocks and feeds her baby and puppies too! I love her so much!!! Happy Birtday My KyriePierie!

Salt Lake City Mommies

I have recently become part of the management team on my mommies group. I LOVE it. I am the hospitality manager and man does it keep me busy. Some of my duties include organizing a new member play date every month, helping the new members navigate the fourms, recognizing birthdays, and welcoming new members! It is so fun. There is tons more to do now. The women I have meet through this group are utterly amazing. It has been a great support to me. I decided I wanted to give back and be part of this wonderful community of women, so when the old manager stepped down (and nominated me) I gladly accepted the position.

So that is my excuse as to why I am so behind on my blog. I promise that I will get picture up from Halloween and Kyrie's Birthday soon. In the mean time come check out my mommies group it is the BEST!

http://www.saltlakecitymommies.com/

We decided to take advantage of the beautiful fall weather. We made a trip down to wheeler farm on Sunday afternoon. It was actually hot outside! They were having the farmers market. It was so much fun. They had a cow train and a pumpkin hunt. The kids loved seeing all the animals to. What a great way to spend a Sunday afternoon

Mean Old Witch

Happy Halloween!!

By my side

This is my new favorite picture in my house. The other night I was praying to Heavenly Father for strength and confidence in my anxiety. I was having a rough night. I also prayed that Izaac would have comfort, that he might get some healing sleep. He had been sick. As I finished up I heard Izaac coughing and whining. I went to his door and peeked in. He was OK. I watched for a moment. As I stood there I noticed the picture of Christ by me. It reminded me that he was there holding my hand supporting us. He was there next to me. Now every time I stand in that hallway next to that picture anxiously gazing at my children I know he is next to me. Standing by my side.

Stand Up

The weather is changing and so am I. I have seasonal depression and winter can be a huge struggle. I cling to the happiness the holidays bring but soon after new years I find it hard to be happy.

This week has been really hard on me. I have been really dwelling on my children and how everything in the past year and a half has affected them. I can’t help but blame myself. When I see how they are affected by the fact that they don’t see dad every day or the fact that they really don’t have consistence in their life I break down. All I can think is I did this to them. It is my fault. Then I tend to over compensate for that. I protect them from things that aren’t even happening. This probably makes it worse.

I have some thing about me that I hate. Things that, yes, contributed to the ending of my marriage. I am changing, but I have seemed to hit a plateau. I want to change I want to be different but some how I still find myself doing those things. You would think that wanting it would be enough. I was so frustrated. Almost ready to give up. Almost willing to except that I am who I am and that will never change and I will never be able to have an honest good relationship

Tonight as I sat wide awake, wishing I could sleep I had some inspiration. I can’t change my past. What’s done is done and I did it to myself. I now just have to live with it. I can however change my future. I ripped my kid’s life apart once. I took them away from everything they knew. Everything that was comfort. They are just starting to get that back and I am not about to do that again.

Tonight I stand up for my self. Tonight I stand up for my kids. Tonight I stand up for the one I love. I am who I want to be. With the help of God and my new wonderful little family I can be who I want to be.