Summer 2011

This summer has been wonderful! June was full of celebration for Izaac's 4th birthday. It was a blast!



We rented a huge jump and bounce house.
He litterally played on it all day. We had it from 9 am to 5 pm and the only time he came off was to eat and open presents. He had a blast and looked forward to it for weeks. I can't believe my baby is 4! His is getting so big. He is so funny. He loves to tease and joke, but has a very sensitive side. He randomly tells us he loves us all the time. His family of animals has grown to Mickey and Coconuts. He really is the sweetes boy I know!



July was full of carnivals,fire works, and keeping cool. we did Taylorsville days and Riverton days. The night that Taylorsville set off the fireworks Me and Izaac went over to Bennion Jounior High and watched them. It was perrfect. Not so loud and we didn't get stuck in all the traffic. He thought they were magical. It was a great mommy son date!

The end of July we went to willard bay for my birthday. To see the blog from that weekend click here.

August was preety chill EXECPT our AWESOME VACATION!! At the end of august we went to my favorite place! History: My parents owned a time share when I was a kid. Since I could remember we went there every summer. We would stay at this awesome hotel. Our room was a mini apartment with two bedrooms three batrooms a kitchen and a living room. It had an indoor pool too. I have so many good memories there. It was a second home to me! My parents sold the time share after I graduated High school. I was devistated. Every year since then we have gone up to the park city resort for a day and did the alpine slide. It has been so fun! WELL this year my mom rented three Condos. One for my family one for Michelle's and One for her and dad. It was amazing. Since I was little I dreamed of taking my kids there and sharing this adventure I had growing up. The kids LOVED it. They were so excited they had their own room in the hotel away from me. We got all day passes at park city resort and did the alpine slide, zip line, alpine coaster, tramps, mini golf, kiddie rides... so much. Izaac went down the slide once but was having two much fun on the huge inflatible slide to go again. We "snuck" Kyrie on the alpine slide. Your are suppose to be 2yrs old to ride.. she is two months away. So yes that day she was two! I floored it the whole way down and she screamed WEEEEEE!! and laughed and laughed. It was awesome. We spent the rest of the time relaxing and swimming. It was a dream come true!

September 11th

Well I wanted to do this sooner but life got away.

Saturday September 10 my family went out to sandy city to see the flags. They were amazing. They put up a flag for every victim. On the flag was a tag that talked about who that flag was dedicated to. Sunday morning we got up with not much thought, and went to church. Right at the start of sacrament our bishopric got up and read a letter from Taylorsville city. They wanted the city to observe a moment of silence at 11 am and that a fire truck would be driving around with it’s siren on in observance of September 11th. AT 11 we opened the door in the sacrement room and all sat in silence. Unfortunately we never heard the sirens but it was a beautiful moment. I have never heard the sacrament room so silent. All the kids were quiet as if they knew how important it was.



September 11, 2001

I was getting ready for school. I was a junior in High school. Every morning I listened to 97.1’s morning show. I remember hearing about some accident in NY. I didn’t care much and went about my morning. When I got to school. Every TV was on. I walked in to my first class and everyone was watching some where crying. I was scared. That day we went from class to class and watched the reports. The teacher talked to us. Helped us understand what was happening. I knew our lives would be different from that day on.

The older I get the more I learn and appreciate. Sunday morning as I sat in silence all I could think was how unfair that I am sitting here today. How unfair that so many innocent people died. I remembered how badly I wanted to help in 2001. I felt helpless and still do.

One of my good friends posted this in her blog. It is a wonderful short film about a gentleman’s experience that day and how it affected his life.

Today music is speaking to me. Cold play, Fix you. I love the lyrics.

When you try your best, but you don't succeed
When you get what you want, but not what you need
When you feel so tired, but you can't sleep
Stuck in reverse

And the tears come streaming down your face
When you lose something you can't replace
When you love someone, but it goes to waste
Could it be worse?

Lights will guide you home
And ignite your bones
And I will try to fix you

When I heard this song all I could think was, that was me last night. I was so tired. I couldn't sleep. I felt like I was in reverse, and I cried and cried.

Chris's life still effects me emotionally. It shouldn't..

Watching another women move into my house. The house I still owned. Taking over my kitchen my room...

Walking through that now empty house Remembering all the memories. Watching my life with chris from beging to end. Remebering the good and the bad…

I reflect on a post from Febuary. You can read it here.

I am over the fact that another women is in his life. I know I will never be that women. I don't want to be that women. It is the fact that he was my bestfriend for 8 year. He was there every day. We shared so many intamate things. Now I have to sit back and watch him share those experiences with someone else. One of those experiences happened yesterday. It was way harder for me than I thought it would be.

I know that sooner than later I will get to experience all this and more with james. It's just late at night, when he is asleep, when my kids are gone, I have nothing but myself. All alone, I tend to let my mind wonder.

Details in the Fabric Lyrics

Oh how the emotions flow. Will they ever stop. Surprises around every corner. Dark villians reminding me of the past. Not letting me forget. Reminding me of the person I was. The peson that was so shellfish the person that still is.

Willard Bay 2011

This weekend was amazing!! Friday Me and James took off to Brigham city with the kids Earlier than every one else. We spent some time with one of my best friends Randi, swimming at the hotel pool and then went out to dinner in Brigham city with her and her kids. Saturday the boys woke up early to reserve a spot at the beach and launch the wave runners. My mom and me had a relaxing morning getting he kids feed and ready and headed over around 10. It was perfect. Izaac loved the lake this year. He was swimming, playing in the sand and even rode the wave runner. Kyrie liked it but wasn't too sure about the cold water. She loved to float around in the car boat. Of course she was very interested in the food we had there. All she wanted to do was eat! Sunday we went to church with the Tanners and relaxed and played and ate dinner with them. We headed home sunday night.

The kids did really well with the hotel and loved the adventures there. It really was the best lake trip ever. I was so happy to have the love of my life with me. A beautiful change of pace from last year.

well just wanted to check in. Things have been well for us. We are preparing for a trip to Willard Bay this weekend! I am so excited. It is for my birthday and I can't wait to get out on te water and just forget about the world. I can't wait to see how kyrie reacts to the lake. Last year she was so little she didn't really know what was going on. Izaac has never liked the lake. He hates all the sand. I am curious how he will react this year. It seems this summer he has been interested in things he hated last year. Like the fireworks, he LOVED them this year. Last year he HATED them. Funny. I hope that his new attitude carries over to the lake.